The finish line!

After a painful 3-hour drive through a bad rainstorm, we made it to our hotel in Jamestown and settled in for the night. In less than 12 hours we'd be completing our first Olympic distance triathlon! Pablo was of course a lot less nervous than I was. I wasn't just going to complete a new distance, I was also going to swim in a river! In case I haven't mentioned it yet, I have...or had...a massive fear of dark water. Growing up in the Caribbean I am used to swimming in clear blue, always see your toes water and while I've gotten into darker water, I've always stayed very close to the shore and before White Lake in April (which was a clear lake), I had never actually swam in a lake. Jamestown was going to be an achievement both physically and mentally.

To calm my nerves I focused on double-checking my gear bag: goggles, bike shoes, helmet, running shoes, gels...I went down the list and after checking it twice got ready for bed. I got a few good hours of sleep and before I knew it, the alarm was going off and it was time to go. We drove to the race, picked up our packets, set-up the bikes and headed to the swim start. THE SWIM START. The James River is already murky on good days, so imagine the brown water that awaited us after a day of storms. I let the fear take over for a brief minute and then I decided it was the perfect day to get over my fears.

Pablo went off on his warm-up swim and I did a pretend warm-up near the shore. I wasn't quite ready to overcome my fear. Then it was go time. Pablo's wave went first and I watched them as they aimed for the first buoy. I chatted with some of my fellow females and finally decided it was time to get a few minutes of swimming. Then it was our turn.

1500 meters, here we go. Yikes, I'm swimming in a dark river...no, no, you don't have time for that, focus! Swim, swim, breathe, swim, swim, breathe, sight, ok there's the bouy, keep swimming. I fell into a rhythm and before I knew it 35 minutes had passed and I was coming out of the water.

I DID IT! That's really all I could think of in T1. That and don't forget to put on your helmet.

The bike went pretty flawless. I was staying above 16mph, which was my goal and I enjoyed the perfect weather and beautiful scenery. There were a few riders with flats along the way and I did a little prayer to the triathlon gods to spare me, because I don't know how to change a flat. Before I knew it I had finished the bike in 1:29:05 (under 1:30, score!)

T2 was quick, because all I had to do was re-rack my bike, take off my helmet and switch my shoes.
The first finishers were coming in and I wondered where Pablo was on the run. The run was partly on trails and partly on a running path. I ran strong and got an extra boost when I saw Pablo as he was on the last mile or so of his run.

I was definitely getting tired during the last 2 miles and my mind starting messing with me, but the accomplishment of swimming in dark water and my self-motivating mantra gave me the boost I needed to finish strong. You got this, I kept telling myself. When I saw the finish line I picked up the pace and sprinted across - 3:13:44. Take that 3:15 goal!

Just last week I had had a disastrous training ride/run and I was worried that I wouldn't be able to finish at Jamestown and here I was finishing faster than I thought I could. 

The lesson I learned?

Whether it's an Olympic Distance Triathlon, overcoming a fear or simply starting a new journey. Our mind will quickly send us into doubt. I don't blame it. It's not easy and your brain knows it will be hard. It knows it will take strength, perseverance and willpower. Sitting on the couch, making excuses, saying tomorrow, those options are much much easier....but they are not as satisfying as the success you feel when you cross that finish line!

Today I conquered both my mental fear of dark water and the physical feat of an Olympic distance triathlon. Let me tell you, I have never felt so proud, accomplished or happy in my life. I have also never felt so strong both physically and mentally. I didn't come in first, I didn't break any records and I still have a long way to go, but today I accomplished a milestone and I am exhausted and elated!

It's going to take time...

I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I AM FRUSTRATED!
I worked out 4 times last week, only went over my calories once, yet I am still stuck at 167 (only 0.5lbs from my starting weight almost a month ago). How am I supposed to stay motivated if I don't see results?

I'm sure this is a question many people ask themselves as they go through this journey. Gaining weight and becoming a couch potato is easy. Losing weight and becoming fit...not so much. It takes work and when we work we want results. 0.5lbs in 3 weeks is just not a strong enough reinforcer.

So have I given up? Not yet.

While I am definitely discouraged, I keep telling myself that I am following the right prescription and I should see results soon. I am actually stepping up the routine. This week I plan on working out 6 times and I'm going to track my diet even closer. While I haven't lost weight, I have realized how much I enjoy being active and feeling strong.

I've also been lucky to find a friend to go through this with. She started her journey a few weeks before I did and despite the fact that she lives in Hawaii, while I live on the East Coast, we're connected through MyFitnessPal and provide each other with support. She's lost 6 pounds already and keeps telling me to hang in there, because it took her a while before she started shedding pounds. It's nice to hear encouragement and see where I could be in a few weeks.

I'm still frustrated that the scale hasn't budged, but I guess it makes sense. Muscle weighs more than fat or actually a pound of muscle takes up less volume than a pound of fat, so as you convert fat to muscle you may not be losing weight, but you are shaping up and hopefully losing volume. I tested this theory and while my weight has stayed steady I've actually lost 1/2 inch around my waist and 1/2 inch around my hips. Not bad!

I'm also aware that increasing muscle also means increasing my metabolism. Muscle burns more calories than fat. Basically, the more I workout the more effective my body will become at burning calories, which means more calories burned, less stored. So while the pounds may not be coming off just yet, hopefully the fat has been decreasing. It's also motivating to know that shaping up means that I'll be able to do more and doing more means burning more. I've definitely seen the results of that already. The ab exercises feel easier and as my running distance has increased, so has my speed. For example, on June 21 I ran 1.2 miles at a 12:35 min/mile pace and on July 21 I ran 2.0 miles at a 10:57 min/mile pace. Harder, better, faster, stronger! (I should add that song to my running playlist)

Small achievements, that's my new strategy. The scale may not be showing me what I want, but other things are. Losing inches, gaining strength, it's all part of the journey to fitness. Of course I also want to lose 20 pounds, but I think that is the difference between a diet and a lifestyle change: it's more than the pounds and it's going to take time.

Starting Over

Pensamentunan (the original url of this blog) means thoughts and I guess when I first chose this blog name that was my intention; share my thoughts with the world. Like anyone wants to listen to my thoughts?! Well, just in case you're interested, my thoughts these days are focused on my weight. Actually less on my weight and more on my lack of fitness and general health.

It wasn't always this way. I was a dancer for 18 years of my life, then moved on to running, biking and some swimming. I've completed a sprint triathlon, 3 half marathons, a full marathon and a 5-day 200-mile bike ride. Needless to say I was pretty fit. Never super skinny, but always fit. Now, not so much. My weight has steadily increased these past 2-3 years and now, for the first time, I have this tummy that I am constantly, often unsuccessfully, trying to hide.

I recently read a blog about a woman who talks about her weight loss journey and how it started. She says that one day it just hit her and she knew it was time to change for good. I know exactly how she feels, because just last week the same feeling hit me.

Maybe it's the fact that I turn 30 in 3 days or maybe it's the fact that I no longer look good in any of my clothes or the fact that I hate getting my picture taken or maybe it's the fact that I see what being overweight and sedentary can do to you...I don't want that, not anymore. I also really just miss being active. Running, biking, dancing, I love it all. I also love to eat & drink and the truth is, in order to eat and drink all the yummy things the world has to offer you have to workout. You have to create a calorie balance of what goes in and what gets burned off. Calorie excess causes you to gain wait, calorie deficit (in healthy amounts) causes weight loss. So that's what I'm doing.

I'm not obese, but I'm definitely at least 25 pounds overweight and I want at least 20 of those pounds to come off! (I've taken pictures, but honestly I am not quite ready to share them with you). I realize, because this is not a diet, but a lifestyle change, it may take me a while to lose all the weight.

So here's my plan:

Cardio: 3X per week, starting with 20-30 minutes and building up to 30-45min. I plan to start with running and building it up slowly (last week I ran 3X, although only for 15 minutes since it had been over a year since my last run). Once the running is up to a solid 30-45 minutes, I'd like to up my routine to 4X per week and add biking and maybe some swimming to my routine.

Strength: I'm not too worried about this for now, although strength training has been known to be the secret to losing weight. I definitely want to work on that tummy of mine ASAP, so three days ago I started the 300 in 30 ab challenge which I want to try to complete at least 5 days per week. Intermix that with some lunge/squat/leg raise routines and I should be set to get my biggest problem areas back in too shape.

Food: Thanks to the MyFitnessPal app, I know that my calorie intake on non-workout days should be 1200-1400 calories, so that'll be my base. On workout days I'll increase to 1600-2000 depending on how much I do. Like I said I love to eat, so I'm not going to place too many limits, although I'll definitely be watching my fat and sugar intake.

That's it! That's the plan. I'm intrigued by CrossFit (doesn't everyone doing it just look so fit?), so I may try that out after I complete the 300/30 challenge. I also want to run another half and do another sprint triathlon, so I may have to add official training schedules once I've signed up for those, but I think in general this will be a good base for improving my fitness.

Any suggestions are definitely welcome! And if you're ready to get fit, join me! We can become MyFitnessPal friends and motivate each other!

*Note: The images were found on Pinterest. If you know the original source, let me know, so I can cite them.